Saturday, July 18, 2009
learning is a journey which never ends.
It has been 2 years plus since i had started on my journey away from the comfortable Singaporean kid life.
I left poly, applied for SHATEC and joined Secret Recipe, my first F&B line.
Although i had applied for culinary skills, i started work as a service crew.
Working then was my life, especially after my break-up.
Even though i was just a part-timer, i worked close to 12 hours daily.
School starts after 3 months.
It was another type of life for me.
I explore things which i had never done before.
I met different types of people, people which are so different from I had ever met.
It was like a whole new experience which i would never thought of.
Soon, life at SHATEC was my everything.
With my buddies in school, we studied together, flirt with girls together.
I never expect something else till i started work at Baden.
I met this girl.
I thought liking her was just another normal thing.
besides ,at that moment, she was also having her own relationship problem.
so, i would just spend my time accompanying her, cheering her up.
Was it really fate, or just purely coincidence.October 7, attachment had just started and i decided to meet up with 2 of my friends for a drink.
I forgot why i was with her. but i brought her along to drink.
and with no reason why, my friend just kind of got us together.
and that's how we started.
for the first 2 months, both of us were so happy together.
but perhaps, i never had once past a 2 month relationship.
problems surfaced.
she avoided me for a month, the month which i had tried so hard just to get a few minutes of her time to talk to her.
maybe it wasn't time for us to end.
we got back together. 4th month 5th month....
with a few quarrels here and there, i was contented with her by my side.
till 1, 2 month ago,
perhaps she wasn't in a good mood, plus i was having problems with my attachment.
i had a big quarrel with her. i hurt her with my words.
by the time, i could calm down and think. it was too late.
words that had been said can't be taken back.
although things had been cleared out and she didn't bother about me.
i know in her heart she does.
recently she just started attachment.
maybe she was too tired or is there other reason.
i had not seen her for 3 weeks.
i thought about it.
perhaps it's a test for me.
another learning experience of life.
starting a relationship is about love.maintaining one is about trust and understanding.
to foster a relationship which could last forever is something i'm learning now.
this 2 years of life experience, no matter what's the result, i've gained.
September is around the corner.
people have asked me how i'm going to celebrate my 21st birthday.
to me, birthday should be an event extremely important to a person.
but right now, i only wish to celebrate with that very one person in my life, her.
with her by my side beats the celebration, the presents i could get.
If I can plan my own birthday, I just want to spend my whole day with her.to my buddies, to her.
CHEERS! to every good things in life.
