Saturday, August 30, 2008
maybe you didn't know.
but every word was just like a sharp knife,
that pierces deeply into my heart.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 2:53 PM
Friday, August 29, 2008
i just can't stop loving her.
every words, every action.
congrats. intercont chef.
2 more weeks till exams.
time to stay focus.
projects due next week.
and her birthday too. =)
i just hope everything succeeds.
i've been planning.
it's your smile that brightens my everyday.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 3:43 AM
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
there's still lots to do.
数到五答应我
第一次看着你就为你心动 聪明的我 怎能让你走
第二次看见你我竟然失控 是我的错 请你原谅我
第三次看见你想要告诉你 我真的爱你 是真的爱你
第四次看着你我有些要求 请你能够 安安静静的聆听
一.让我保护你
二.让我照顾你
三.所有的要求不能当作游戏
四.接受这命运
五.永远不分离
那最后一个一定要说你愿意
I wanna be your lover I wanna be your man
我只要你开心多一点
can you be my lover don't wanna be your friend
给你幸福到永远
Nerdy Cheesecake! 10:11 PM
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
what makes a good chef.
what makes me so special to be a good chef.
the prologue.
i just felt like giving up already.
but how can i when i told others not to.
3 more weeks to attachment.
even if i lasted through 3 weeks.
how about that 1 year.
whatever. just a step at a time.
one by one. forsaking everything.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 12:09 AM
Saturday, August 23, 2008
how much do you understand yourself.
is cooking your passion.
know yourself well to win others.
every words were just repeats of statements of others during the past 1 year.
do i know myself.
is cooking my passion?
i enjoy cooking. but is that what i really wanted.
soul-searching.
so many questions that can't be answered.
thinking.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 4:08 AM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
damn sian.
have to find new hotels again.
i don't like this feeling.
why does it happen over and over again.
fucking just get over it.
wake up.
bang against the damn wall and wake up.
there's just too much to learn.
i regretted growing up too slow.
"before you start learning, understand the philosophy"
that's what he said.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 1:18 AM
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
well.
i guess it just takes time.
lots of time.
i chose this path.
i dont want to turn back again.
anyway. time for me to go is getting near.
3 more years.
The Sentosa Resort and Spa called again.
to meet the chef on wednesday.
hope i get through.
damn tired to go for interview and interview.
just let it go my way please.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 12:31 AM
Monday, August 18, 2008
it's always like that.
always gone when i needed them the most.
internet's down again.
shall blog in notepad then update tml.
current mood is fucked-up.
i thought i could bring some back chatting online.
well. whatever.
i really felt super super tired already.
it has come to a point where the previous me would have just give up on everything.
but i can't bear to do it now.
i've put too much effort within this one year.f
rom the point i met the first her,
till we broke off, entered shatec.
met another her. gave it all for studies.
then getting good grades.
i could have say i had gave everything i could.
i m tired.
my resolve had weaken.
yet there's no chance for a breather.
how i wish there was a few days to get everything out of my head.
too much things happened during the recent week.
i never thought of this third her.
didn't know when. but the feeling just came.
everything changes.
and i expected something to happen.
every single time.when things began to run smoothly for me.
now i'm waiting for tuesday.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 3:35 AM
Saturday, August 16, 2008
忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你
有一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你
真的很简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
i love you 无法不爱着你
说你也爱我
i love you 永远不愿意baby
失去你
不可能更快乐
只要能在一起
做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停
用最真诚的心
让爱变得简单
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法决择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
i love you 我一直在这里
一直在爱你
i love you 永远都不放弃
这爱你的权利
如果你还有一些困惑
请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着爱你
yes i do
i love you
Nerdy Cheesecake! 11:40 AM
every minute wait just seems like a few thousand years.What am I supposed to do with all these blues
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what i do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go, when will that night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over
Nerdy Cheesecake! 3:38 AM
Friday, August 15, 2008
i never liked to smoke.
i never liked drinking.
yet i kept smoking and drinking.
so what if i liked her.
i'm nothing compared to him.
not because he is way better than me.
but just that.
she loved him.
he's far more important to her than me.
i was just another friend that only appeared 2 months ago.
i just wonder if you will feel heartache if you heard how hard she cried because of you.
if you don't, just leave her.
if you do, please don't make her sad anymore.
no matter what.
i just wish to see her happy again.
i miss her smile, her laughter, that cute little face that never fails to cheer me up.
the day she had been waiting for.
just hours till she get her answer.
to break up or to make up?
Nerdy Cheesecake! 1:23 AM
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
damn bored now.
seriously life sucks.
my feeling is fucked up.
currently at bryan's house.
nothing to do.
keep thinking of her.
moody.
helpless.
how i hope friday will pass soon.
at least there's an answer for her.
at least she won't be so sad.
at least i know what i can do.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 2:18 PM
i thought.
i still like her.
but after all this that happened to u.
i felt so much for u.
i never wanted this to happen.
i just wanted it to be just like best of friends, brother and sister.
yet.
fate outplayed me.
now i'm left stuck in the middle.
my heart and thoughts are all messed up right now.
when i heard u cried today when u called me abt ur bf,
my heart sank. it hurt me so much to hear u sad.
seriously. i had no mood for lessons.
i just wanted.
to rush down to find u.
when lessons finally ended and i rushed down.
the moment i heard from u how important he is to u,
it felt like the whole sky had fallen.
but nevertheless i just want to try my best to make u laugh, make u smile.
i'm feeling so fucked-up now. lost.
went to had a drink with scott.
chatted for an hour.
nothing much came out.
just overflowing problems.
if only life could be like prehistoric times.
hunt and get hunted.
to survive or to die.
but too much had been added in now.
a heart that went dead 5 hours ago.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 1:14 AM
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
bleah..
i can't remember what else i did during this long weekend.
all i remembered was working and working.
perhaps that's how life is during attachment?
somehow. i just feel there will be another big change in life soon.
maybe.......
Nerdy Cheesecake! 12:55 AM
Friday, August 08, 2008
there are just days when i just felt so tired.
mentally tired.
especially....
many people say i was a fool,to give up someone who like me for the girl i like.but whatever now.i thought through it.just that one girl even if she ain't mine.难以忘记初次见你
一双迷人的眼睛
在我脑海里
你的身影挥散不去
握你的双手感觉你的温柔
真的有点透
不过气你的天真
我想珍惜
看到你受委屈我会伤心.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 12:24 AM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
been thinking all night lor.
just tell me how you feel.
if i got a chance.
i don't wish to guess any longer.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 3:08 AM
Saturday, August 02, 2008
i msged those words to her.
that i like her.maybe i felt it's time to just give another try.
i didn't know why i help that guy to pass her the thing.
but something weird from my heart just kept me from doing so.
instead i asked her friend to do it.
To try was a 50-50% chance.
i didn't want to regret after missing my chance.
now that i have told her.
will that 50% be zero.
or will it get higher.
it's an answer i'll be waiting for.
everytime i heard abt tat guy talking abt her,i will have that weird feeling.something which i can't control.will i be avoided.
will everything just end.
the 50% chance.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 6:06 AM
