Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms.
Here tonight
Hey baby, when we are together, doing things that we love.
Everytime you're near I feel like I'm in heaven, feeling high.
I don't want to let go, girl.I just need you you to know girl.
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms.
I don't want to run away, I want to stay forever, through time and time.
No promises
I don't wanna run away, I don't wanna be alone
No Promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, now and forever my love
No promises
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
I don't wanna run away, baby you're the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight, I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight.
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life just felt so much better.
maybe that's cause i'm not thinking too much anymore.
thoughts wander, but they just remain as it is.
chinese new year.
things will get much better.
calmness. is all that i feel in my heart.
spend my whole day at home today.
offday. caught up with some old friends.
did want to go out.
but most of them were not free.
eat sleep watch movie play game.
doing things i used to do before.
but it just ain't the same anymore.
people change.
u change i change.
" I've never had a dream come true
Till the day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby
I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day
And I know no matter where life takes me to
A part of me will always be with you "
Nerdy Cheesecake! 2:28 AM
Saturday, January 17, 2009
i'm crazy.
i'm crazy.
i'm crazy.
i'm crazy.
i'm crazy.
damn all the stupid thoughts.
haha. it's over!
no more no more.
i lead another life.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 12:16 PM
Thursday, January 15, 2009
damn tired.
but i don't feel like sleeping now.
i really felt like closing myself up.
hide in my room,
on my bed.
no one will look for me anyway.
blah.
stupid thought.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 1:55 AM
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
那一条牙膏 再对我傻笑
嘲笑我永远用不掉
想睡就睡 想闹就闹
好快乐少了人捞叨
蓝色的碗盘 多买了一套
我忘了没人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角
无辜的陪笑
才会让我能真的忘了你的好
我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了
突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了
还在搞笑害怕回家不知怎麽熬
这麽多年早就喜欢有你的撒娇
我想我能熬
但是至少要让我知道 你好不好
我们的小狗 食量变好小
眼神裏常常显得无聊
它习惯睡觉的床位
少了一双脚
所以它常常看着门口睡不着
我在搞笑藉着热闹掩盖着心跳
边哭边笑偏要说着一个人真好
当人群散了
突然觉得我可以死掉
我受不了
我在搞笑却在最后眼泪拼命掉
你的离开失去多少我计算不了
忙完了一天
突然觉得又何必辛劳
对谁炫耀
还在搞笑是否拥有麻痹的疗效
唱一夜歌却避不开催泪的曲调
我这夜胡闹 希望听到有人会提到 你好不好
Nerdy Cheesecake! 12:23 AM
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
night after night, i just kept having the same dream.
and everytime when i tried to hug you,
everything just disappears.
just like how i destroyed what i once had.
i blamed myself once but i realised it won't help in anything.
i don't know what else i can do.
i don't know what else i have to do.
i just tried my best to stay happy, keep smiling,
hoping all these will just go away and return to how it's like before.
but somehow i think it's just my own wishful thinking.
i counted the days,i counted the time,i counted every moments we were once in b4.patiently, patiently.still waiting.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 1:19 AM
Sunday, January 11, 2009
working in a kitchen is so damn fun.
it's totally different from other working places.
we scold each other, fuck each other.
and we call that team bonding.
but it's just totally true.
we joke around, point out each other mistakes.
that includes even the chef.
but of cause with some respect.
in this kitchen, i found back the feeling of going to work everyday.
we help each other, tiring but felt worth it.
during this past month, i created a fucking big mess in my life.
my family, my relationship.
big fuck. yes, so big that till now i can't clean up the mess.
my family now still not so bad. but her.
i just felt so different.
i miss the days where i get to disturb her or so called "bully"
and she trys to do the same back to me.
but i doubt i will ever have it back.
but nevermind, as long as the relationship is stable.
work is now a big part of me.
it just help me cover up all the things i don't wish to think about.
work and work, slogging my ass off.
i'm just afraid one day i will tired myself out.
but i don't think that day will come.
no matter how tired i am. i still have 5 hours of sleep and just enough to keep me going.
i bet she doesn't knows how happy i was that she was back.
i bet she doesn't knows how much i miss her this few days.
some might say it's just a few days only, don't be silly.
but to me, it's different when i intend to give my everything into this relationship.
that's how i love someone.
i'm just a person who keeps learning things through mistakes.
how much did i gain from learning, or i lost more making the mistakes.
if i didn't fail in poly, i will never gone to shatec.
if i didn't go to shatec, i will never learn much about the outside world,
i will never work part time in baden.
if i never work in baden, i will never get to know her.
4 years. i brought my life over to a world i never ever thought i would be in.
4 years. i tried to find myself.
4 years. i tried to redeem myself.
i've no idea why i wrote so much in this post.
but i just want to keep writing.
i don't want to bottle up my feelings anymore.
i felt so heavy inside.
so tired.
so tired.
i just hope she doesn't treat me so coldly anymore.
my heart can't take it.
it freezes me so hard that a single knock will break it into many pieces.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 2:18 AM
Thursday, January 08, 2009
离乡背井已经多年
人不轻狂枉费少年
伤痕累累毫无作为
依然装作潇洒一回
日以继夜无法入睡
所有疲惫映入眼帘
暮然回首细数伤口
我问自己还能撑多久
回家的路走的太遥远看也看不见
翻山越岭一天又一天你在哪一边
回家的路走的每一步感觉都孤独
回家的路走的好辛苦却好幸福
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样
回家的路走的好辛苦却看不清楚
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无论到哪还是家最舒服.
因为当时的倔强而照成的后果.
回家的路走的好辛苦却好幸福.
i was never alone.
i was just being too self-centered.
i only thought of myself and never those around me.
i hurt every single person who were concerned about me.
till today after i watched the show, i realised how i was like.
to those i deeply hurt,
I'm sorry.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 4:43 AM
Tuesday, January 06, 2009
说过的错话做过的错事
这一辈子我都不想忘记
因为每一次都是对我的一个教训一段成长
我自认我不够成熟
因此造成了一个又一个伤心落泪
我知道做过的事无法洗去
但我会很努力很努力的去弥补
Nerdy Cheesecake! 1:26 AM
Monday, January 05, 2009
黄子俊阿黄子俊
我真的觉得你很糟糕
你到底在想什么
一次又一次的不断伤害人
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样...
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样...
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样...
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样...
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样...
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样...
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样...
要不是当时的倔强如今也不会变这样...
你真是个彻底的白痴.
烂人废物王八蛋.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 5:43 PM
i just want everything back to normal.
Nerdy Cheesecake! 4:34 AM
Sunday, January 04, 2009
原来一切都是我的错
想不到想了三个星期就是这样的结果
我想我也许要点时间好好去反省
Nerdy Cheesecake! 10:33 PM
Saturday, January 03, 2009
一天天的过了
第三个星期
你对我也一天比一天的冷淡
当我问你你却说你很累
问你是否不开心你却叫我等待
要是时光能到流
最经我抽的烟越来越多
一不忙想到的就会是抽烟
是心情不好还是闷?
好的真的值得等待吗?
还是又是一次又一次的敷衍我
但我还是选择了等
Nerdy Cheesecake! 12:27 AM
