sweet.
practicum's over
and how long was it since i went clubbing.
funniest night ever.
i'm so damn tired now.


it's fun seeing how life changes when you look back into the past.
the childish ways, the stupid stuffs, the crazy things.

4:41 AM

forgotten since when,
the smile on my face had disappeared.
in the past, people used to say i hardly get angry,
the smile on my face. now it doesn't last.
was it the past one year, or was it the recent few months.
I..




have forgotten.

4:04 PM

Stay the Same - Joey Mcintyre

Don't you ever wish you were someone else,
You were meant to be the way you are exactly.
Don't you ever say you don't like the way you are.
When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far.
And I hope you always stay the same,
cuz there's nothin' 'bout you I would change.

I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

12:47 AM

i'm fking bored.
damn bored.
extremely bored.
terribly bored.
bored bored bored to the max.

yes. i wanted the off but why tell me only today that i'm having a off tml.
stupid.
i guess i gonna have to sleep all day.
Life sucks.

11:53 PM

reality.
the hammer which shatters every single little dream of mine.









what seen of me was just a mask,
hiding all insecurities of my heart.

4:50 AM

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it overI would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the mostIs being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do




left heartbroken.
with every meaningless piece.
to just turn and walk away.

4:50 AM

did i change. or practically still the same.


i was actually mentally prepared to complete that report tonight.
but it seems like scott didn't save that stupid report properly and i can't open it.
damn it.
and i need the stupid thing done by tomorrow for binding.





分手那天我们划清了界限
听着音乐要自己冷静一些
是我不了解
还是不懂安慰
无法让您感动
只好在你背后默默跟随

习惯了孤单的滋味
对不对都无所谓
在你身边原来早有人陪
该不该忘了这一切
还是勇敢继续向前

习惯了天真的梦
它呀它呀不改变
就算伤口再痛还是绝不后退
说抱歉之后才发现
我是傻的可怜
允许自己流下泪
却还是慢慢一步一步
走到你的身边

是我不了解
还是不懂安慰
无法让您感动
只好在你背后默默跟随

习惯了孤单的滋味
对不对都无所谓
在你身边原来早有人陪
该不该忘了这一切
还是勇敢继续向前

习惯了天真的梦
它呀它呀不改变
就算伤口再痛还是绝不后退
说抱歉之后才发现
我是傻的可怜
允许自己流下泪
却还是慢慢一步一步
走到你的身边

允许自己流下泪
却还是慢慢一步一步
走到你的身边
真的真的还是想你
真的真的还是爱你
真的真的没有了你


but there's nothing much more i can do.

1:53 AM

An empty street
An empty house
A hole inside my heart
I'm all alone and the rooms are getting smaller

I wonder how,
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together
And oh my love

I'm holding on forever
Reaching for a love that seem so far
So I say a little prayer
And hope my dreams will take me there
Where the skies are blue
To see you once again, my love
Overseas from coast to coast
To find the place I love the most
Where the fields are green
To see you once again, my love

I try to read
I go to work
I'm laughing with my friends
But I can't stop to keep myself from thinking

I wonder how,
I wonder why
I wonder where they are
The days we had, the songs we sang together
And oh my love
I'm holding on forever
Reaching for a love that seem so far

To hold you in my arms
To promise you my love
To tell you from the heart
You're all I'm thinking of
I'm reaching for a love seem so far.

11:24 PM

boOs. i hate editing reports.
Compiling all the personal diaries from every members.
Check for typo errors, grammar errors or whatsoever.
damn shagged la.
i
don't
want
to
read
the
reports
anymore =(

shall do it tomorrow morning then.
goodnight reports.






i wanna lock up my heart in a chest just for you.
tell me.
step forward or just turn away.

2:31 AM

damn it.
my com is down again.
got to use this super slow com.
surprisingly this super slow com works longer than the new one.
but it still sucks.


somehow i'm feeling lost this few days.
and i don't know why.
damn moody.
just wish to have someone to talk to.
can someone cheer me up.
blah. i got no mood for anything.
and it sucks too.





tick tock. was the only sound i could hear.
in this darkness, where even stars can't shine.

12:43 AM

盼不到我爱的人
我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人
片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人
却将你伤的最深
我不忍我不能
别再认真
忘了我的人
离不开我爱的人
我知道爱需要缘分
放不下爱我的人
因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心
碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能
拥在怀中直到他变冷
爱我的人为我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对
谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪
为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围



tell me why.

2:47 AM

waking up not knowing what to do for the day.
staying in the house all alone.
repeatedly walking up and down the house trying to find something to do.
the symptoms of a boring Sunday.


all fun is gone.
back to boring life.
but i just this time.
i'm all alone.

1:04 AM

EC's over.
everything's great.
totally enjoyed.

爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔




why do i get this feeling that life is boring.
is everything going to be like before.
i've worked so hard till this day.
what am i.

2:06 PM

the week is almost over!

war of 120 is just ended. =/
and after 5 days with a total 20kg of mash.
a sprained wrist.
no more heavy stuff.






=)

12:07 AM

EC is tiring!

last 2 days.
gambette.






我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人
迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目的地走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

2:05 AM

我什麽都不要知不知道
若你懂我这一秒
我想看到我在寻找
那所谓的爱情的美好
我紧紧的依靠紧谨守牢
不敢漏掉一丝一毫
愿你看到.

2:47 AM

friday is going to be damn tiring.

mise en place seems to be never-ending.
yawns.







有那么一点点动心,
一点点迟疑,
不敢相信我的情不自禁.
我对你有一点动心,
不知结果是悲伤还是喜.
有那么一点点动心,
一点点迟疑,
害怕爱过以后还要失去.

2:23 AM

After 2 days of EC.

40 pax each day is still manageable.
4 more days to go.
will there be a turnover?

9:46 AM

a smile (:

that's all i ever needed.

12:07 AM

shagged.

EC's tomorrow.
goodluck.

7:01 PM

Mahjong.
the thing that makes me rush down for.

khakis called for meeting at 1050.
all arrived at 11plus.
and all the way till 5 then off for Mac breakfast.


the first awaiting big event is just next week. 2 days away.
8 months of school ended.
4 more months till attachment.
everything goes in a blink of eye.







Life is about finding what you want.
and all i want is a stable career and you.

5:54 AM

2 more weeks of afternoon shift.
how boring can that be. freaking no life.
all because of the EC next week. =(

12:46 PM

there's always bound to be days like today.
when i feel bored.
when i don't feel like sleeping early.

maybe it's because i've been sleeping early.
i keep waking up early too.
then i get tired early.
and the cycle continues.


i just want to do something special now.
talk to someone special.
be with someone special.
and that's when thoughts are only thoughts,
which could only be done dreaming.





if you were to sneeze everytime i think of you,
you might really thought you had a bad cold.

12:50 AM

Leaving is never easy.
especially with memories.

What's gone can never come back.
especially feelings and Life&Death.

People always say to let go, to forget.
but it's always easier said than done.


What's remain may seems to be the most painful.
but that's when Life can start its new chapter.
Some may deem it heartless.
yet till the end of the day, that's how it is.
Isn't it.








it's a heartbreak to know that you're sad...
cheer up :)

11:36 AM

shit man.

this afternoon i was at serangoon mrt,
and this guy around his 40s came to talk to me.
then he keep telling me. you look handsome leh, thank you.
i was like, wtf is he crazy or is he gay.
and there was a few people around looking at me. -.-

but the funny thing was that, it wasn't the first time.
that's the second time in mrt station. plus twice in shopping mall.
do i have labels, I'm gay, on my face?
duh.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

12:31 AM

why do things just have to become so fk-ed up.

just the few days before EC.
shut the crap and get all the things done man.

11:17 PM

我愿等

这很难纵然也觉得寂寞
一个人的生活
回头看也走了一大段
关于爱是夜里不小心
回想起当自己跟自己的对话
还没答案

我不怕从前留的伤口
记着爱的美好
只是我还在想只是我任向往
爱不就是应该跟热恋恋自燃
所以别轻易把爱点燃

我不要爱了再说好聚好散
留着退路的爱情
是一种期盼我不稀罕
一旦我再次把爱点燃
请让我有天长地久的打算
每个人都有个心灵栖身的地方
而爱是方向

我也想寂寞时有人作伴
两个人的生活欢喜和悲伤
有人分享
遇见你我该感谢天感谢地
却也忍不住想你是否也和我一样
放手爱吗

这个人间在懂得
没有了爱也枉然
只要你也做好准备
我会毫不保留
我会打开胸膛
我会把所有的爱全都倾囊







等待一份真爱.
我愿意.
不能天长地久, 只有今生今世.

2:32 AM

bored.

have been all day home, recuperating.
still thinking if i should take an mc and rest at home.






give me a sign.
appear in my dream.
tell me what to do.

7:22 PM

kenneth

791988

let my heartbeat be my heart's cry let me live to serve your call
in my life, You're my only one

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