Friday, November 06, 2009
when all the msges i send last night was just a facade.
it really hurts deep down inside.
too much for me to handle.
i felt so lost with no one to turn to.
after all there's no one that could help me make it better.
went for a run cause i just didnt want to stay at home.
ran aimlessly round and round my estate.
i guess i ain't that strong.
I love you. 8:50 AM
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Thanks alot.
I love you. 7:25 PM
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
i felt my life was in a mess. and so is my room.
it's time to clean up. perhaps end of this month.
after i quit my job to get prepared for ns.
and it's 37 days more to go.
if you still reads this blog,
girl, no matter what problems you have, i will always be the first to be there for you.
perhaps, it was work or any other reasons, but it just seems to me that i had be taken out from your life. i'm left with this 1 month and yet you are still busy. i think it will be quite a long time to be able to meet you after i enlist. but till then, take care and stay cheerful =)
I love you. 9:33 AM
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
let me tell you a joke.
Me, myself, kenneth wong.
i just find myself damn pathetic.
i seriously failed as a son, a boyfriend, a whatever i am.
desperately trying to fill my schedule up so that i won't start thinking too much.
yes, i'm a joke. laugh at me.
I love you. 2:20 AM
Monday, November 02, 2009
无论如何, 我都要撑下去...
40 more days to go.
i shall give myself a chance to believe in myself.
that things will turn out fine.
29 more working days.
10 days of rest.
and i shall move on to another chapter in life.
what are the sacrifices in life that we had to make.
what is more important to us.
what is worth going on for.
most of the times, there are things in life which we can't balance.
and we have to sacrifice one, believing they can be more understanding.
whatever decisions, i trust wholeheartly.
I love you. 4:47 AM
Sunday, November 01, 2009
spoilt my day.
and there all goes with the stupid rain.
am i asking too much?
I love you. 12:32 AM
Sunday, October 25, 2009
fast or slow.
i wondered.
finally something i've wanted to get over with it is around the corner.
just 46 days more.
it gonna be another life-changing experience.
i won't say it was bad that i had dropped out from poly 2 years back.
now, i had experienced more things,
had a group of buddies,
had a wonderful gf although we don't had much chance meeting up often now.
just like in the past,
everyone just gets busy.
right now, i shall just wait patiently till Dec 11.
working my days away, hanging out with pat, bryan and gang.
waiting for someday when my busy gf gets a little time out for me.
i shall just enjoy this little process of 46 days.
perhaps i was like the guy in this movie 'Click'
always trying to forward things.
in the end i miss out the process within.
the moments of happiness and laugther.
but thats just how humans learn.
mistakes.
everytime i thought about the past, i realised,
"oh, i should be doing it this way." or "Why did i do that"
but, everything's too late.
i just hope for the every next time, i get a chance to do things right.
i had emo-ed, and i 've thought through.
when nothing waits for you, you just have to keep moving on.
no one pities you for the mistakes you had made.
everyone had their own.
anyway, it's for to sleep.
just some thoughts to myself.
let's move on together.
I love you. 3:21 AM
